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Perdido Street and Agincourt: Guest Post from Wet Bank Guide

September 14th, 2006 by Loki

We are too much a rabble, leaderless and increasingly dispirited. I heard nothing in the mayor’s 100-day remarks Wednesday to remedy that. We lack the charismatic leadership we need to see us through this dark hour, our Henry V to rally the tired few to the great battle that will remake the world. Instead, we get Mayor Hamlet, Prince of Denmark or somewhere, anywhere else but New Orleans, wandering the ramparts of Perdido Street and wondering how to proceed.

I see more and more on-line commentators, and some in the newspaper, remark that they are starting to have thoughts of moving on, of leaving the city, of giving up. No one I know personally is ready to leave, and people I thought lost to Texas continue to trickle in despite all the challenges. Still, the conventional wisdom of the street points to the sprouting forests of For Sale signs as indication that many who haven’t yet returned, and more than a few who are back, are making other plans.

I wasn’t surprised to hear this sort of chatter in August. The first serious month of hurricane season was filled with an endless tide of contrary news, the threat of a storm in the Gulf, and the looming anniversary. Even for the most heavily medicated population in the developed world, it was a depressing prospect. Can we make it, people asked each other with the breathlessness of exhausted swimmers struggling to make their way to the shore.

The mayor and his circle give us no confidence. Leadership is the rescue we need now every bit as much as the people on the roofs of last year, watching the helicopters circle then leave; the 100-day promise was another lifeline tantalizing dangled before our eyes and then withdrawn. Perhaps we should drape our houses in bedsheets roughly lettered: Mayor Nagin, Please Help Us.

I remain convinced the city will survive. We the 200,000 who have come home can be enough if we do not surrender, if we insist that our leaders step up to the difficult challenges we face as a city, as a collective. We only ask they they work as hard and as ingenously as those who labor all day to save their businesses, and still go home at night to work on ruined homes, that the mayor and his cohorts navigate the paths of Entergy and RTA and recovery finances in the same way the majority of us hack our way through the jungle of insurance, SBA and LRA.

The rousing speech Shakespeare puts into the mouth of his Henry V is something I have carried with me through the years, the product of most of a degree in English Literature from the University of New Orleans, and a number of years spent working alongside a Shakespeare enthusiast. Henry’s position was bleak. He was at the end of a long land campaign, surrounded by the French who had cut off his line of supply and retreat, facing a choice between victory and defeat, with no place for retreat. It is a marvel of motivational speech, a statement that rings true to the American ear across the centuries with its martial setting and its celebration of exceptionalism.

It is the speech I would hear from Perdido Street, but have no reason to expect; the sort of speech we must demand of our own leaders, if they wish to be counted among the 200,000 who saved the city. It is the speech we must all give to ourselves, should post on our shaving mirrors or on the doors of our new refrigetarors, to remind ourselves we are here because we have chosen this place to fight.

Its opening words are the best response I could offer to Mayor Hamlet’s vacuous remarks, and the truest antidote to them. If you read this blog, you are among the 200,000, the happy few. I do not mean to indict those who have not returned, by choice or happenstance. It is mostly beyond their control. Instead, I mean to remind the 200,000 that they are living through a special place and time in history, one that will be long remembered. When people look back on this time, they will read of the president and the governor and the mayor and laugh, or perhaps cry in catharsis at the tragedy of hubris strutting to its doom. There’s nothing we can do now to remedy the leaders who hobble us, except to prove them wrong, to write for ourselves the scene that ends not in tragedy but in triumph.

…proclaim it, Westmoreland, through my host,
That he which hath no stomach to this fight,
Let him depart; his passport shall be made,
And crowns for convoy put into his purse;
We would not die in that man’s company
That fears his fellowship to die with us.
This day is call’d the feast of Crispian.
He that outlives this day, and comes safe home,
Will stand a tip-toe when this day is nam’d,
And rouse him at the name of Crispian.
He that shall live this day, and see old age,
Will yearly on the vigil feast his neighbours,
And say ‘To-morrow is Saint Crispian.’
Then will he strip his sleeve and show his scars,
and say ‘These wounds I had on Crispian’s day.’
Old men forget; yet all shall be forgot,
But he’ll remember, with advantages,
What feats he did that day. Then shall our names,
Familiar in his mouth as household words-
Harry the King, Bedford and Exeter,
Warwick and Talbot, Salisbury and Gloucester-
Be in their flowing cups freshly rememb’red.
This story shall the good man teach his son;
And Crispin Crispian shall ne’er go by,
From this day to the ending of the world,
But we in it shall be remembered-
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he to-day that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne’er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition;
And gentlemen in England now-a-bed
Shall think themselves accurs’d they were not here,
And hold their manhoods cheap whiles any speaks
That fought with us upon Saint Crispin’s day.
-Mark Folse, Wet Bank Guide 

Flashflood. Oops, I Mean Flashback

August 31st, 2006 by Loki

One year ago:

trying desperately to turn my fear, pain, and shaking hands to good cause I continued to attempt to get an audio record of my fellow New Orleanians during this disaster. By this point I was rather wild eyed and crazy, just like most others.

Having just paid for our honeymoon and wedding, as well as having the Storm fall right before payday, L and I had practically no resources. We knew that wee only had a matter of two or three days in the hotel before we would be completely destitute in a foreign state a long way from home.

http://humidcity.com/2005/08/31/112550809130377077/
Michael Guilliot of Kenner speaks

http://humidcity.com/2005/08/31/112551409023146492/
File With FEMA Now (little did I realize at the time that this would be so useless to so many of us. My own adventures with FEMA, distasteful as they are pale in comparison to what others have experienced in the bungling of the last year.)

Guest Post From Shadow: A Letter To New Orleans

August 30th, 2006 by Loki

My Love,
I keep my promises.
While away from you my feet have touched many shores. My lips kissed many cheeks. I have seen the rolling green hills of England. The misty mountains of Scotland. The ancient and holy Rome. The snowy streets of Prague. Beauty that took my breath away. And while I tasted their treasures and enjoyed their bodies, my palate yearned for what you had to offer.

Incredibly, I saw the love for you in each of these places. From people native to them, other wanderers like me and most of all in my own heart.
In my time gone I learned so much about everyone, myself included. Once returned I was struck by the ugliness, the cowardice and the determination of people I thought I knew. As I walked your forever changed streets, I felt such calm, such sadness, such desperation. Such a rage that threatened to destroy me. It still does. It threatens us all. And there is no escaping it. I watch as people, strangers and loved ones alike, fall apart. They open and rot, much like you, recognizable, but only barely.
Your people ache with you. And we are scattered to the edges of these Unites States. No where is safe anymore, Lover. We speak about it in shouts, in rants, on our porches, on stages, at our tables, over cocktails, at sticky tables with powdered sugar on our shoes. Most poignantly, in bed, in the dark with naked legs twining and fingers stroking hair. Letting the fears flow and saying what we cannot when the lights are on.
I do not know what the future holds for me and mine. But I am home. And I have again touched your dips and crevices, cracks and curves, the harsh bumps and delicate details. I have listened to your rhythm, your age and wisdom. My heart has beat in time with your cruelty. Your sensitivity. Your aloofness. Your flow and cadence. I bleed the blood of you. I mourn your soul. I have cried when I once again experienced the way you smell in the rain. When I’ve heard your harsh laughter. I am still yours.
I have covered your face with my kisses and filled your gaps with my tears.

Today I will go walk the jazz funeral for you.
I am still waiting for the end of my broken heart, my sacred New Orleans.

Shadow Angelina Starkey
New Orleans Photographer
http://www.drowningwoman.net

We Are NOT Okay

August 29th, 2006 by Loki


Anniversary

Originally uploaded by Humid City.


I Miss My Friends

August 29th, 2006 by Loki

One year ago this minute I was crammed in a small car with all five of our cats, my business partner, my finacee, and a lot of general crap. It would be five hours yet before we would finally hit W. Memphis. It was obviously the Storm of the Century, we might even be gone three or four days. Little did we know.

The intervening year has been a tempest of emotion. Suddenly I really have  empathy when I see a natural/man made disaster strike. I mean really have empathy. The visions of Lebanese cities and towns after the bombings, the view of normally arid areas of India submerged, these images almost give me physical pain now. I have seen my friends and family suffer through the devastation. I know people who have died both due to the storm and by their own hand, unable to deal with the aftermath.

Like all the bloggers out there posting on the subject I wanted to put out a magnum opus, a tirade of Homeric proportion which would incite the people of elsewhere to rise up and shout, “Thou shalt not desert our countrymen!” Alas, illness and depression dictate not.

As I sat here, staring at the blank text field which waits for me to fill it’s taunting tabula rasa, I realized that I had no words. At least not the type of words that would fit the gravity of the occasion.

In lieu of the Battle Cry For New Orleans you will have to settle for more personal, simple sentences:

I miss my friends.

I miss streets devoid of looters, rubble, and fear.

I miss having even a shred of faith in the social contract.

After tomorrow the mass media will forget us, and so will the people.

I miss the phrase “oncoming hurricane,” meaning a day off and a beer run.

I can’t believe I’m actually glad the National Guard is back. Yes, me.

My family got here with Bienville, I’m fighting for my home!

Hold the Corps Accountable!

Sinn Fein! We Are NOT Okay! 

Rebuild, Reboot, Renew!

Misery

August 28th, 2006 by Loki

Just got off the phone with an old friend who I have not seen since way before the Storm. We did not talk long, but long enough. Hearing the tale of how his mother died during the night of The Storm and then had her body lost for weeks was like a punch to the solar plexus. Horror movies have nothing on the plight of our friends and family members. One year later and the tragedies continue to mount. It is, quite simply, heart rending. No wonder I have the shakes.

Humid City v2.3 » Blog Archive » Run Away: Podcast

August 28th, 2006 by Loki

At this time one year ago we began our evacuation, little knowing what the coming months would bring. I had sent out a link to the newly formed Humid City (then on Blogger) and told friends and family to check it regularly for updates on our situation. Here is a recording done via cellphone from the Bonnet Carre Spilway as we drove through the oncoming storm bands.

Humid City v2.3 - Blog Archive- Run Away: Podcast